Sunday, September 23, 2007

Dealing With Life

If anyone still checks this blog, I thank you for sticking around during my absence. Right after my last post, life got in the way in triple time.

My niece was diagnosed with AML Luekemia, that was so scary, I can't even describe it to you. But after intensive chemo, which she is still undergoing, I am happy to say that she is now in remission. We just pray that she stays that way for the next five years, and then they can say she is cancer free.

My mother was diagnosed with a heart condition, the bottom half of her heart is only working at 30%. The call she got from the doctor after she had an ultra-sound on her heart scared the bejeezus out of us. They told her it didn't look good and was referring her to a cardiologist. That's it. Then we had to wait a month for the appointment. Scary time-thinking something is critically wrong your Mom. My Mom is one of the most important people in my life, the thought of something happening to her really floored me. It totally knocked me off kilter.

I said, triple time, didn't I? Yes, this whine fest is not over. The third problem was me. I had a serious case of writer's block. Even though I wanted to write, I couldn't. I would type something and then read it and hit delete. Nothing I put down sounded good to me and I seriously started to doubt myself as a writer. So I decided to step back from it, just to see if I could. And I couldn't. The stories I have started kept coming to mind and I would think of what I wanted to do with it and where I wanted the story to go, and even thought up a new story altogether. So, I am getting back in the groove, calling up my muse, and dusting off my mojo. Time to get back to what I love.

Here's to writers, doing what they love because they just can't help themselves.


Tessa Dare said...

Wow, Terry -

Sorry to hear about your niece and your mom! But I'm glad that they're doing well and you're dusting off that mojo...

Take care of yourself!

Gillian Layne said...

You are my hero!

And that quote is going to be my new motto-- "Doing what they love because they just can't help themselves"--fabulous!!

Marianne Harden said...

We're here for you---always and forever, my friend.

PS...Miss Robyn's hat loves Washington so much that it keep making me forget to send it. Promise, promise, tomorrow it is on its way east.

BTW---beautiful picture!

doglady said...

Love the photo, Terry Jo! I echo my fellow Slaves when I say we are here for you always, whenever you need us. And I cannot wait to read the new one! Keep working that mojo, sister!

Terry Stone said...

Tessa, so glad to hear from you. I am going to have to start blog hopping again, see what all I've missed.

Gillian, Marianne, and Pam thank you all. You've been such a tremendous support to me. What a wonderful group of ladies you are!

India Carolina said...

Terry, I hope your life is settling down by now. My prayers are with your family.

If your muse has fled, that's understandable, but I bet she's working underground to bring your mojo back stronger than ever!

Terry Stone said...

India, so sorry I haven't checked on comments and missed this one!

Life has indeed settled down. My niece is on her last round of chemo, Mom has had her MRI and we go back to schedule her surgery in Jan.

And my muse is slowly forgiving me my doubts and hiatus. Some days, I have really good mojo and words seem to flow. Others, I put stuff down and then go back the next day and take them out. But I am beginning to see that that is normal for all writers.